july is not being good to me
i am feeling weak

i had tiff with my sis and i am drifting apart from them.
they might think all i do is dating
i went out almost everyday just to stay out from house
they dont know i am desperately needing care frm them, all of this while
but i gave up
i dont know how to interact with them
i am feeling like a transparent
i want a home, not a house

he is my only shelter.
i have no friends
i am feeling loved when im with him
i cant possibly cry in front of others for no reason
he knows why
he knows the pain
and i just need a hug
i am not a lil girl who try to walk away frm house and ran to my boy
maybe you think i am naive, to had believed love easily witihin 4 months
there's a bond between us, you will not understand
i never know i could be so loved. i was loveless.
i wish to live with him
to start afresh, to built our own happiness

i am not desperated to be loved and write like this
i love him and i need him

Love. ms.ping