sorry

im glad we have this site.
somehow we couldnt share our thought directly bcos we dont know how each other will react
and how we react doesnt really comply with our heart

i know u've been very down recently, dear
i know the insecure feeling of yours
u've been very cautious to not argue with me
but its hard for me to see u like this
an unhappy boyfriend of mine
i dont know whether the sms i sent last time was a right decision
pls dont face every burden on your own, do share with me
i dont want you to act like anybody else
just be yourself dear
im sorry for my stubborn, moody and everything from my stressed life that upset you

i love you

CD

countdown ..
almost cant sleep all night long this weeks or maybe month,
dont know what i was thinking about..

happy,,sad,,past,,future,,
meaning of life..

just a few of days more we've been together for a year

Ive learned many things..

about how precious is my life..

about how to love and to be loved..

and how to pass all the problems..

thanks to my wonderful by that come to my life..brighten my life..

like shayne ward said,,nothing is impossible,,nothing is unreachable..when i am weary,,you make me stronger..this love is beautiful,,so unforgettable,,i feel no winter cold whern we are together..

 

when i look into your eyes i see my future now,,

through the hardest days,,u re the reason,,my only reason..

 

i always ask..

what is the meaning of happiness..

now,,i know..

my happiness is when you my only one happy..

 

hope you cant hold on,,patient with my worst and always stand by me dear..

:)

i dont need a valentine as long as we are happy together 

it was still a wonderful night for me.

the ambience,beach,flowers,chocolate and gift.

i love the bouquet alot,which you have been prepared since december

3 stalks of white roses that mean purity and love me truly, i really love you too

9 stalks of red roses that mean an eternal love, i want it too

all 12 stalks is asking me to promise you an eternal love, i do baby

i dont care about all the gifts, it's you and the thought that count, im sorry and i love you

i just need you to be sensible, thats all im asking for
im using all i have, trying all my best to hold on with barriers

Thanks

thanks baby,,thanks for everything,,
i believe that everything happen for a reason,,
so trust me bby,,
i will always love love you and promise me ull do the same..
sorry dear coz i always ruin everything..
ill try to do my best
love you <3

HOW I AM FEELING

thanks dear for the wonderful night. i was still surprised
thanks for the beautiful flowers with the beautiful meaning.
sorry for what happened last night that might add a scratch to our memories.
you told me the meaning the flowers and i believe it

3 stalks of white roses, i love you truly too
9 stalks of red roses, i want an eternity too
and 12 i will promise to love you always, you know i do, and i never break this promise

you have to be strong as i will collapse facing problems too.
i know i can never mend the hole in your heart with my limited love
but baby, everytime it happened, my heart broke into pieces too
how i wish i could help you but my existence doesnt bring any difference.

i cant stop tearing until now and i dont even know what i am tearing for.
i am really exhausted for all the things i went through,
lots of negative emotions that i couldnt handle, all beyond my ability
i wish i wasnt an adult now so i can still cry in somebody's arm.
telling them how devastated and helpless i am.
hence i need you to stay strong and hold me, for my sake
i cant always stand up again and hold you from troubles
so this time will you help me?

dont try to give up and walk away blaming all the faults on yourself.
i never gv up on you and you shouldnt gv up on yourself too.
dont push me for the so called another happiness
i dont want to. i wont leave you in lurch cos i need you to build our future that we used to strive for.

i dont know how long i can hold on, but im using all i have to face this
dont disappoint me, i am not that strong too, i need you to grow up with me.
you said you dont wanna face this world alone without me. im still around.
for all efforts and sacrifices we've been putting for almost a year, we must hold on

FAILED

hahaha
bby know everything,,
yah tapi gagal ya gagal,,
makasih pingworld =)

valentine's day

baby im sorry to tell you that i arrive here at the wrong timing maybe?
cos i ACCIDENTALLY read this before your surprise handed to me . HAHAH
now what?
i dont know which expression should i use later
well maybe i'll tell him i'v read our blog.depends
cos i am still doubting why he revealed this kind of...earlier. merely sharing or? hahaha

alright, i mean it
sorry for not preparing any decent gift dear, as i dont have any spare time to look for valentine's gift.
blame boss for not  letting me resign
blame UIB for not giving any holiday
blame you for always by my side on weekends
or blame me? sigh
not even a fine chocolate at my office's nearby ._____."

doesn't matter we still have lots of valentine to spend with, dont we? *sinner try to compensate :(

sorry for throwing tantrum last night, i can explain

 i was just feeling upset arguing with a super annoying senior on my presentation. how could he YELL at us abt his obviously wrong stated question and said my answer was MESSY? he could say he dont understand etc. i flared up, couldnt remember what i said in front of everyone, like LOE KALO BLABLAH and said he didnt respect my answer while i tried to explain, he sat like having NO BONE, not looking at us, not listening and DENY every statement of us like he knew everything. why bother to ask then ? trying to show off or what??
in my opinion YOU ARE A STUPID ASS WHO FAILED THE SUBJECT OR DIDNT MANAGE TO FULFILL ALL SKS-es, SCRAMPING IN MY CLASS TALKING SHITS. even my lecturer feel he is absurd tell us not to bother about his following question and ask me to explain to him AGAIN, i refused but she insist. She told me somehow i could be a lil bit more tolerant and thats why i was feeling down thinking yeah why i am that stubborn and temperament.

thats the whole story
back to the point, HAPPY FIRST VALENTINE DEAR ! I LOVE YOU :*

surprise

pingworld,,halooo
aduh pingworld,,mulutku uda ga nahan lg mau ngomong kalo aku uda siapin surprise bwt bby,,
jd cerita ke sini,,
i wish bby do not open this blog till tommorow
aku uda mesen bunga mawar,,setelah penelitian dan pencarian panjang tentang arti makna bunga dan kombinasinya,,aku berhasil menggabungkan dan dibantu oleh donna fiuw semoga besok lancar..
aku juga ada memesan coklat buatan tangan(aku ga bisa buat coklat,jadi harus mesen)
terus selain itu aku ada pesen 1 box cookies dengan box vintage dan ada fotoku di boxnya,,
dan yang paling penting,,
bby ga tau sama sekali dan dia pikir aku ga ada persiapan buat val day ini,,
hahaha....wish me luck guys..
sampai skrg yg jadi pikiranku adalah dimana ada tempat makan yang cukup baik untuk memberikan kejutan ini,,
huff batam..
sekian pingworld,,melepas beban hati dan membuat lega berbicara di sini haha lol
see u again

Sorry =(

Pingworld,,
im so sorry for not blogging for a long long time..
huhuhuhuh
why?coz ive forgot the id =(
and my dear know it >.<
shame on me
huh

Happy 11 months anni by,,,

ohyaaa today i went to sg just for lunch
lol
but ive got somethin for my by

 I LOVE YOU BABY..

hello
just drop by to say HAPPY 11TH MONTH ANNI BABY ! I LOVE YOU

nothing can and will break us apart. i will stand by you, i always do.